Sometimes it’s ok to just knit.
Recently I started a pair of socks, following the same basic pattern I use for pretty much all the socks I make. For various reasons though it was slow going, family issues and grief conspired to fill up my brain with that nasty fog that prevents you from doing anything beyond basic automatic muscle memory knitting. So as the leg grew, I always knit top-down socks, I reached the point where I would normally separate the stitches needed for the heel flap, but my brain just wasn’t working. That fog was so bad I was struggling to concentrate long enough to do a simple knit round, let along anything else like turning a heel. If proof was needed that I wasn’t ok that would be at the top of the list presented as evidence.
So do I continue on as normal, accepting that the odds of messing up were as close to 100% as you’re likely to get, or do something else? Thing is I knew that the knitting was helping combat the fog, but I didn’t want to swap to any of my other current projects. Hmmm….. decisions, decisions. I know I thought, I’ll do afterthought heels on this pair. That way I can just keep going round and round and not need to worry. The speed I was going meant I felt fairly confident that I wouldn’t be down to the toe until my mental state had recovered a bit. Decision made I dug out some contrasting yarn to mark the heel stitches for later, knitted it in, then continued going slowly round and round.
I’ve still not finished the pair, although they’re progressing much more quickly now as my brain is slowly clearing. I think they’ll look quite smart in the end with contrasting toes and afterthought heels. So is there a particular point to this post? I’m not sure, other than to say I believe sometimes it’s ok to just sit and knit. Not every project has to be difficult or from an heirloom pattern. Sometimes the best thing is to kind to yourself and just knit round and round in circles…